So a month ago I had a baby. My wonderful, adorable, absolutely lovely baby boy Julian.
I was surprise that he wasn't a handful. I had imagine all babies to be a handful when born but you were nothing but good. You can sleep through anything! Unless your hungry then you become my hungry little monster sucking at the air till you get your food. You hiccup all the time and it's really cute. You're so good with anybody and everybody. Did I mention everyone you meet loves you? You still have dark blue eyes which I'm surprised at as both your father and I are brown eyed I'm still holding out for a colour change (though I secretly don't want it to change at all!) You smile when you hear my voice which is usually really loud and high pitched but I would do anything to see you smile. You fart a lot but that's slowly going away. It would be so funny just hearing you fart away in your bassinet. You hate being wrapped up and all you want is your arms to be free. You have hairy ears still! And were born with hairy shoulders (gone away now) Your skin is fair I'm putting that on your father. You've pee'd, pooped and thrown up on me thank you. You like baths, but hate being taken out in the cold. You've started to fake cry just so we can hold you but I know the difference buddy! I think you're perfect and seeing you sad or upset breaks my heart. You love lights any bright light on and you just spend your day staring away. You love music the sound of white noise and the sound of a lullaby puts you to sleep. I like to sing to you too. I sing 'rock a bye baby' to you or my own personal song of 'go to sleep baby' or the frozen song of 'Let it go' and 'Lets build a Snowman" (they're awesome admit it!). We watch a lot of Sex and the City together and by we I mean you hang out in your bassinet and I watch it. You have clubfoot in your right foot but your doing great and it's correcting itself beautifully. I don't breastfeed you and you weren't a vagina birth, I've felt a lot of guilt from this but I know to you it makes no difference. You weigh 5.17 kilos! You're nice and big, very eatable. I'm giving you as much kisses as I can before you think it's lame for your mother to do so. I love you so much and I still can't believe you're mine. I'm very lucky and very grateful. I wouldn't change a thing about you. Thank you for teaching me how to let go of the unnecessary and embracing the wonderfully simple things like a small smile or a peaceful sleep. Thank you for making this first month full of wonderful firsts.
I was surprise that he wasn't a handful. I had imagine all babies to be a handful when born but you were nothing but good. You can sleep through anything! Unless your hungry then you become my hungry little monster sucking at the air till you get your food. You hiccup all the time and it's really cute. You're so good with anybody and everybody. Did I mention everyone you meet loves you? You still have dark blue eyes which I'm surprised at as both your father and I are brown eyed I'm still holding out for a colour change (though I secretly don't want it to change at all!) You smile when you hear my voice which is usually really loud and high pitched but I would do anything to see you smile. You fart a lot but that's slowly going away. It would be so funny just hearing you fart away in your bassinet. You hate being wrapped up and all you want is your arms to be free. You have hairy ears still! And were born with hairy shoulders (gone away now) Your skin is fair I'm putting that on your father. You've pee'd, pooped and thrown up on me thank you. You like baths, but hate being taken out in the cold. You've started to fake cry just so we can hold you but I know the difference buddy! I think you're perfect and seeing you sad or upset breaks my heart. You love lights any bright light on and you just spend your day staring away. You love music the sound of white noise and the sound of a lullaby puts you to sleep. I like to sing to you too. I sing 'rock a bye baby' to you or my own personal song of 'go to sleep baby' or the frozen song of 'Let it go' and 'Lets build a Snowman" (they're awesome admit it!). We watch a lot of Sex and the City together and by we I mean you hang out in your bassinet and I watch it. You have clubfoot in your right foot but your doing great and it's correcting itself beautifully. I don't breastfeed you and you weren't a vagina birth, I've felt a lot of guilt from this but I know to you it makes no difference. You weigh 5.17 kilos! You're nice and big, very eatable. I'm giving you as much kisses as I can before you think it's lame for your mother to do so. I love you so much and I still can't believe you're mine. I'm very lucky and very grateful. I wouldn't change a thing about you. Thank you for teaching me how to let go of the unnecessary and embracing the wonderfully simple things like a small smile or a peaceful sleep. Thank you for making this first month full of wonderful firsts.
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